Winter is Coming....

I know, I know, we're not in Westeros. It is July in Missouri so winter is nowhere in the near future but there is so many changes happening in my life right now that I feel like the people in Game of Thrones preparing for a long hard winter. 

Granted, the changes happening in my life will not result in anything as drastic as a long winter in Westeros but I am not a big fan of change unless I can control it or at the very least know exactly what is going to happen so that I can plan. The only thing I am sure of is that we're dealing with the Army so there is very very little that I actually know for certain. I just have this huge amount of worry and frustration bearing down on me and there is absolutely nothing that I can do to lighten the load or change it in any way. 

The one thing that I do know is that my husband is going through a Medboard. Turns out, neurological disorders are frowned upon in the military, especially ones which cannot be controlled with medication. This means that he will most definitely be getting out of the Army but under what circumstances we cannot be sure of yet. A) He could be medically discharged or B) He could be medically retired. The two options are very different so there is no way to make a plan which will work for both. Its all based on percentages as to whether or not it A or B and right now its looking more like option B. Still though, nothing is certain until it is certain. So basically I have about a million ideas running through my head right now about what is going to happen after he gets out. The only thing we know for certain is roughly where we plan to live after making this transition. Beyond that it is all up in the air. 

I do have a savings plan in place which will provide a large cushion for our family as we make the transition from military back to civilian life but that's basically all I have planned. Of course anyone who knows anything about the Army knows that its "hurry up and wait" so we're jut flying by the seat of our pants right now and I am not to thrilled about it. I really truly can embrace change IF I have all the variables laid out before me. Right now, I have nothing but a rough estimate on the time frame and a huge list of things to get done in preparation. 

I am trying to stay calm and just let things happen on their own time, even though it goes against my very nature but that is all I can do for now. It will be nice to have a new adventure and a chance to start over somewhere new.

 We really haven't told many people so it is nice to finally open up about it just a little bit. It kind of makes me feel like I am less alone in what I am going through even if I am sharing it with strangers on a blog. :)